Apocalypse Now

Does the name Francis Ford Coppola ring any bell? Well it took a little time for me to retrieve the reference from the my crowded brain. Then came like a flash of light 'The Godfather' and yes I remembered. Francis Coppola is the famous director of the legendary Godfather series. I was catching one of his other famous movie Apocalypse Now.

Disturbed

Don't know what is bothering me so much but I'm in pain. I'm disturbed. I'm restless. I want to run away. I'm unable to deal with the different and so many responsibilities of life and the worst part is when I look towards the horizon I see the list getting longer and longer till it can fasten its grip around my neck and breaks it. Every day is a mess except the time I spent with my love after lunchtime sitting outside and talking. I know I like that time but still when I'm there I feel to come back to my cube and do some work. The thought is purely disgusting as I don't know what I do in office these days. Then I go to play table tennis for an hour. I used to enjoy that a lot but these days it gets worse day by day. I am tired of expecting some improvement in my game and it goes in the reverse direction. In the evening I feel tired after doing nothing in the whole day. Always keep on thinking that someone else will take all the work from me from arranging my marriage to finishing the procedure of getting my apartment and all. I return home do nothing. Watch meaning less stuff till late at night and force myself to sleep. In between these disgusting routine of my life I get some time to face the better me... who looks directly into my eye and tells me that ain't gonna happen. No body's coming. It's me and only me. You gotta fight.

Both us and soldiers fight. It's just the soldiers fight more - our fight and their fight. It's difficult to get a perfect life but it's possible to make it better. The key to happiness lies in the top shelf of your body. It has the solution of all our miseries and mysteries. We just to need slow down take some time out and retrospect. We'll feel a divine light will fall on the correct path among the million paths in front of us. Don't try to make anyone happy just be selfish and make yourself happy. You can't be happy if you make someone hurt and unhappy. So your happiness will lead others around you towards the same.....

Hang on soldier..............

Marriage

Today Ananya's mother raised the topic of marriage while touring New Brindaban, ISKON, West Virginia. I knew it was comming my way and there it was. I didn't know how to react so I was all ears. I don't know wat say or wat to write...................

Earlier today

Just now launched my Diary ..he..he..he. Launched!!! It was yet another Monday and yet another QA freeze in project. Life runs super fast during the first hours on QA freeze days. Mohamed did his job but couldn't test his solution. It was as easy as one can get and I can dream of. But I assume him to be junior and hence all sins overlooked. Completed my and his migrations. Actually it went quite smooth. I couldn't test the shipper's outbound solution so skipped it. Don't know what I'll tell Kristin when she asks. But what can I do. I don't know it and I don't feel like learning it. I'm tired of working on solutions which I don't know. Then replied to Tim Hammon's mail about the Stock out report. Felt better to see that my doubt was quite logical and resulted in a 10-Day solution expected to come soon. If this comes then this will be my first functionally analyzed solution. Another milestone conquered. Completed the testing of AWFP Job Link solution in D550. I don't know what will be the result in Wednesday's meeting for 10gCU2 testing. Offshore is doing nothing in terms of testing. My bad days are knocking right in front of me.
Arijit da is still in distress. Arindam Dasgupta is showing him some lame proposals. He got the offer of being the Technical lead in NARP's OAPS team. As I know it has only Abhishek Ganguly as its member. I feel bad for him.

iCry

I'm sad. Very very very sad. I was beaming with excitement to buy a new iPhone but I was rejected and dejected. The AT&T store ran a credit check against my name and my nightmare came true. According to my credit history I am ineligible for iPhone. I've to keep a deposit of $500 to take a new connection. After being here for a year now and spending so many thousands of dollars my credit history is inept.

Those of you can't understand my pain watch http://www.apple.com/iphone/guidedtour/