Don't know what is bothering me so much but I'm in pain. I'm disturbed. I'm restless. I want to run away. I'm unable to deal with the different and so many responsibilities of life and the worst part is when I look towards the horizon I see the list getting longer and longer till it can fasten its grip around my neck and breaks it. Every day is a mess except the time I spent with my love after lunchtime sitting outside and talking. I know I like that time but still when I'm there I feel to come back to my cube and do some work. The thought is purely disgusting as I don't know what I do in office these days. Then I go to play table tennis for an hour. I used to enjoy that a lot but these days it gets worse day by day. I am tired of expecting some improvement in my game and it goes in the reverse direction. In the evening I feel tired after doing nothing in the whole day. Always keep on thinking that someone else will take all the work from me from arranging my marriage to finishing the procedure of getting my apartment and all. I return home do nothing. Watch meaning less stuff till late at night and force myself to sleep. In between these disgusting routine of my life I get some time to face the better me... who looks directly into my eye and tells me that ain't gonna happen. No body's coming. It's me and only me. You gotta fight.
Both us and soldiers fight. It's just the soldiers fight more - our fight and their fight. It's difficult to get a perfect life but it's possible to make it better. The key to happiness lies in the top shelf of your body. It has the solution of all our miseries and mysteries. We just to need slow down take some time out and retrospect. We'll feel a divine light will fall on the correct path among the million paths in front of us. Don't try to make anyone happy just be selfish and make yourself happy. You can't be happy if you make someone hurt and unhappy. So your happiness will lead others around you towards the same.....
Hang on soldier..............
